2009

When this year started, I had prayed to God, "Let this year be more eventful than 2006". God landed me on a roller coaster ride.

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Goa. Marathon. Jan EOs. French classes, movies, outings, LQG. 740. Aps. Oct EOs. ISB reject. Realizations. Back to Vidya. The Aal izz well. Nagpur.

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I had wished for just one more thing. But God has a funny way of raising the expectations, and then snatching them away.

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Happy New Year 2010! :)

All is well!

"Here is a request - One day, come up to me, give me a hug, and just say 'it's all ok' ".

"I can say aal izz well"

:)

Circle.

World is a circle. So is life.

It happens again and again. The phenomenon repeats itself. There is no end. It comes back to the same point on circle. Again. And Again.

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You're tearing me apart,
Crushing me inside
You used to lift me up,
Now you get me down.

I'm dazed in madness
Can't lose this sadness
It's ripping me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart
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How many more revolutions? How many?

How many?

Random thoughts of a useless mind

Around a year back, people were putting up numbers like this: 03002015

This year, it is H13/ C227.

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Jab teri gali aaya, sach tab hi nazar aaya,
Gehra samundar tha, usme unchein unchein lehrein,
Wahan pe kuch kam geeli thi barishein

The birds flew away to the summer skies searching a home.
And if the dam broke open many years too soon,
It gotta be a, Mad Mad world,
where I've been putting out fire,
with gasoline.
==

Misinterpretations

A one month long ordeal at a manufacturing site was definitely not what I meant when I wrote the previous post. :P

Anyways, hitlist when I reach Bombay:

1) Poha
2) Aloo Paratha avec white butter
3) Paav Bhaaji ani wada/samosa paav
4) Pasta at a new place
5) Mango (if I can find some)
6) 1 Big watermelon
7) Insti at night
8) Pop Tates

Anyone game? ;)

Screen is a killer.

My eyes pain. I dont want to even look at the laptop screen for next three days. :(

Addictions

He has decided to get rid of his two addictions. One, following him since his college days. Other, following him from last year.

It is taking each and every ounce of his mental energy to keep his hands off the two things.

Fight. Fight. Fight.

Then fight even harder.

Fight till you win. Forget the marathon, THIS is the ultimate test of your will power.

Time!

I just came back from the plant. Switched on the TV. Ordered room service.

-Ting Dong-

"Room service".

-Door opens-

"Good morning Sir!"

-- what the!! Dood, I just came back!!! I want to sleep!! It's not a GM from any angle!!!!!!--

The fellow is confused from my look. Yet, as he gives the food and turns back to go - he again puts up best of his smiles.

"Have a good day sir!"

-Door closes-

Aaarrrgggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Rhymes

Rain. Train. Drain. Crane. Refrain. Cane. Chain. Vain. Gain. Lane. Mane. Main. Sane. Insane. Pain.

Latak. Jhatak. Matak. Natak. No, that doesn't rhyme. It is naatak.

Latak. Jhatak. Matak. Patak. Fatak. Satak. Atak. Chatak. Bhatak. Gatak.

Frankly speaking, I don't know why I am rhyming these words at 12 o clock in night when I've gotta get up at 5 in morning and go for a 20 hour work day. X-(

Pain

Traumatised.

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He burnt his hand with the cigarette in his hand, trying to determine if the pain of a burn was more. He was not at all surprised when the burn stopped aching after some time.

...his heart was still aching.

Life.

Life is a suffering. A constant suffering. Endless pain. Interrupted by small moments of happiness, most of which occur unexpectedly. Sometimes the happy moments are just not enough. You want more. You are disillusioned by the fact that there will be more happy moments in future. You keep running more and more to attain that mirage. Those moments of happiness become more and more rare.

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I heard it someplace - life is like a marathon. Totally true. At starting point, you are very happy. Lots of people running around you. You feel jolly and run with double enthu. Slowly, the crowd grows thinner. Lesser and lesser people around you. Halfway down the path, most of your enthu has gone dead. You just run for those rare happy moments where someone passes you an orange kip or a glucose bottle.
Although, there is a difference, there is an end in sight in marathon which keeps pulling you, in real life, it's an endless race.

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Do you remember the time when you were the most happiest (% of happy time spent per day)? . That time was your childhood. Since then, the % of happy time has only reduced.

Anyways, lets search for those happy moments. Let's hope that the % will increase.

But it rained... (Again)

I don't know why I keep returning to these lyrics time and again:

"They justified the cause for which Daddy might give up his life
It's been so long, so long a time, still I miss Daddy at night
The ache is long gone but the never keeps staring along
The waters in the seas are high
...and all the sand castles have drowned.

... How I thought the sun would shine tomorrow..
But it rained!!"
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The one with the stupid weekend.

What a productive saturday!! I boiled 1000 kg of water today in one tank and transferred it to another!

x-(

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Everytime a watch friends, I am reminded that I want a foosball table!! :-(

1984, Animal Farm

George Orwell is a bi*ch. I just wonder what would have happened if this world had been according to his imagination. :(

Or, is his imagination already true? :-s

:D

Dhakka tiki dhakka tiki dhakka tiki dhak!!
Dhakka tiki dhakka tiki dhakka tiki dhak!!

:D :D :D

p.s. if anyone argues it is 'dhak ki tiki' instead of 'Dhakka tiki' - read this - i DONT care!! :D

Selfish world

Joey: There is no such thing as selfless good deed in this world.

I totally agree. Every passing day just etches this thought deeper into my soul.

Great people

All great people (read: elders) have one thing in common: they know how to state the obvious - in very clear, concise words.

And it's these words that prove to be the silver lining when it's bleak all around. :)

Drained

Burnt and broken.

Time for resurrection. Time for phoenix to rise from ashes.

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Excess time was a killer;
He tried to kill time, exhaustion killed him;
He tried to kill exhaustion, overrest killed him;
He tried to kill overrest, negligence killed him;
He tried to kill negligence, which required more time,
which,
He had already killed.

Confession time.

He smoked 4 cigs. Sitting alone at MD.

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This is all a big game. We are just pawns, playing into the hands of the unknown. The real master is somewhere else, invisible, unreachable - we, however hard we try, will always be the puppets.

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-The Big Bang Theory-
"Do you know how I know we are not in Matrix"
"How?"
"Because then, the food here wont taste so bad"
(Read: "Because then, our lives wont be so miserable")

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"Na Jeen tu menu dendi,
Na maran tu menu dendi,
Na maran tu menu dendi..
O jugni tap tap tap tap,
Khun bahundi"

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I want to know who the master is. I want to know him. I want to understand this game. I think you might meet the smaller masters on your way, but it is almost impossible to meet the real one.

The question is, is it "almost impossible" or is it "impossible"?

Looking for answers - meanwhile, lets play.

So True..

" CQ भी उसकी ख़ास नही थी,
Day 2 तक पड़ गया रुकना,
गाँव में साबुन बेच रहा है,
झूठ है उसका हँसना...

......... पे पड़ गई लात तो क्या है,
बनेगा नया महल"


- बोधी Tree

Never realized in the earlier years that the song was going to be so closely applicable to my life! :P

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42.15 -(2-3).

But ya - I did it!!!

:D

Marathon

The uncertainties surface again.

I just wish to complete it. Don't know if I'd be successful or not. But least I can do is try.

Yes - that's it - that's what I'll do - I'll try! :)