Why?

The question has been dominating my thoughts almost for two years now.

I think that the roots go back to Techfest.

"क्यों ? क्यों करना चाहते हो ये Techfest?"

This was the crux of all the questions bombarded on me from left, right and center in that 4 hour long 'treat' that changed my life, as it did for 21 other people with me, as it does for 22 other people every year.

The answers vary. But the fact is - the answers exist - from sensible to weird, everyone does have an answer.
" I want to do this fest because it's a huge challenge in front of me - to do something this big , is an opportunity of lifetime"
" अरे , दुनिया को दिखाना है, मेरी g@#$d में भी दम है !! मैं भी कुछ कर सकता हूँ !"
And with such dreams, such aspirations, everyone starts his journey

A year later, when he has done his share for the fest, comes the period - popularly called "The Void" of a manager's life. "The Void" - this term has been coined for the period of life of a manager when he suddenly realises - he doesn't have any work left. The thing that ate up ~20 hrs/day of his life for the past one year - is suddenly - over. He doesn't know what to do with his time.

It was this void that killed me. I tried to find solace in Yahoo! Messenger, my PT, job hunt and CAT preparation, and some time down the line, in my job..but nothing has seemed to fill up the void completely.

The one year old " Why Techfest" had eventually given rise to the question - " Why life".

There was one difference this time - I didn't know the answer.

The tragedy is - I still don't know the answer.

Do you have any answers?



Music : Godsmack : Why do we dream .....