The Other Why....

We had a fight. Yet we were going for dinner together. I pick her up.
Sensing my non talkative mood - she says
" अपन अभी भी उसी बात पे अटके रहेंगे क्या?"
That's it. That's all she has to do to make me talk again.

Again, we had a fight. I tried using the same line on her. Didn't work. I tried to be funny. Didn't work. I tried to be serious. Didn't work. Finally - saying sorry for a fault that was not mine - was the only thing that worked.

Believe me, you have to do this.

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Forrest Gump had done many great things in his life. However, he never understood why Jenny eluded him.
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I don't remember exactly how it started. Probably it was a smile that she passed.
Probably it was a cold coffee at the shack that we both were fond of. Or it was a common course, in which I borrowed notes.

We started liking each other, and then it all started. Sharing books, sharing cold coffees, sharing thoughts. Sitting for hours and talking. Sitting for hours and not talking. Just gazing at the stars. Getting out of room and walking more than 2 kms in dead of night, just because the other person wanted to have coffee. Dancing in the rain. The 5 Rs. icecream near Dadar. Collecting the return bus ticket as a souvenir and preserving it. The double cheese maggi.. All the eating, and then all the attempts to shed off the extra weight. All those wonderful, cherished moments :)

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"chal coffee pite hain"
"ok" ( I think I should propose today - it's about time - she's all that I want)

"Oye.. I've to tell you something."
"ok...."
"umm.... I'm seeing someone nowadays - I think he might be...."
I couldn't focus on whatever she said later.
Dreams were shattered. I was Devastated.

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Why?? Why???? Why can't she be mine?????

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Forrest Gump could never understand why he couldn't get Jenny. I'll always wonder why I couldn't get her.

Some things are beyond understanding. One should wait for time to give us the answers, to heal the wounds.

I still wait.